No Matter, I Really Love you..Sista.

Iseng bukain postingan lama, dan aku nemu salah satu comment di postingan tahun 2010....dan aku tau itu dari satu-satunya kakak kandungku...Mbak Puti. Cuma comment itu atas nama 'Altergrafik', perusahaan suaminya. Sukses bikin aku galau ini asli. Oke, mari kita tampilkan....


"Mbak Puti itu sama sekali bukan sosok kakak yang asik. Jauh dari kata asik malah."

I knew you would think of me that way..
And I’m not quite interested to change that..
You know why?
Because we’re totally two different person..
You know that personality based on where that person spent most of their childhood, right?
Well, I spent most of my childhood in Jakarta, it shapes my perspectives about everything in life..
And you, you spent most of your childhood in this city, yogyakarta, you even talk in ‘medhok’ accent..
Your taste of music, your taste of fashion, your attitude, your perspectives, your way of thinking are something that I could never understand…or even like..
I know that I’m always gonna be the alien in our family, and I know that I could never close to any of you because none of you could understand me completely..
But that’s totally okay, I love being an alien..i really do.. 
Not like you, I grew up alone, with many different nannies..i got beat up by some of them, and it’s kind of make me so ‘different’ with all of you..
The other thing is, I’m the first child, our parents give me a lot of pressure, and I sacrifice my own entertainment just to avoid them from getting mad.. 
for example, at twenty-something girl, I only spent my night-out for like 5 times A YEAR.. it’s something so embarrassing, I got laughed too many times, but I get used to it..
and umm…I confused when you said “pengen sih punya kamar yg bersih dan nyaman”..
the answer is…clean it up!!! They always get mad of you because you’re so lazy.. how could you not understand that??? Maybe that’s the other thing that makes us so different, you’re not aware of your own faults…you are too busy with your own unimportant needs..

PS: people who spend most of their times with twitter, facebook, or anything like that just to show their life off, are the most annoying people ever.. you only live once and you spend it with non-exist life?? Get a life..! if you wanna look cool, BE the trend, don’t follow them!

You know what...I really sorry to hear that and why you didn't try to close to me? I'm still your sister, right? Tapi, makasih ya aku jadi sadar sekarang kalo aku emang males banget ya. Aku juga sadar kalo itu bikin kita beda, tapi kamu tau gak? Aku gak pernah nganggep kita beda. Kita tetep saudara kandung, kamu tetep kakakku. And no matter, no reason...I really love you ever after eventhough you never know. I love and miss when we spend our times together and take a some of pictures. Dan sampe sekarang kamu udah nikah dan Alhamdulillah udah 'isi' perutnya, aku juga ngerasa kangen ada kamu di rumah. I always pray for you that you get your own happiness with your new life, tenang aja. Kalo kamu mampir ke blog-ku lagi dan baca ini, aku mau ngomong kalo aku sayang sama kamu maaf kalo suka bikin kesel, minjem barang gak bilang, soalnya kadang aku iri sama kakaknya temen-temenku mereka pinjem-pinjeman barang asik banget dan aku juga pengin kita gitu :)

Danger Ranger - With You

Tonight I think about you girl
And I wake and I wake up in the middle of the night
You appear in my dream
And it feels so real
When I'm holding on your arms, oh
I'll never let you go
I'm trying to fix this feeling
Till the end of my day
And I know that you'll never know
That I'm here on your side
That I'm here being your guide
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/d/danger_ranger/with_you.html ]
How could you got me crazy
Girl, how could you let me into your heart, ohh
And just let it go
Go on and let it go
I wish I could be honest when I'm there with you
I wish I started my life with you
Please just make it true
I'll never let anyone make you sad
Though you, you thought me bad
And let me regret of you
You thought me bad and let me regret of you... 

With you
Together we can make it true
With you
We got to believe though we'll never know
With you... 

I'll pick you up
And take you all the night
Try to be your guard
Who makes you feel alright
Try to be your guard
Who makes you feel alright...

FSTVLST - Menantang Rasi Bintang

Menantang rasi bintang, membalik garis tangan
Menarikan cerita, menuliskan lagi puisi
Yang mulai kehilangan rimanya...
Memotong awan pekat gelap, melintang tepat di jantungnya
Terburailah darah cahaya, yang lama terhalang gelapnya
Silau berkilauan terangnya, benderang...
Tenang sebentar mengendapkan, uraikan simpul kacaunya 
Diam sebentar membedakan, yang teringinkan yang dibutuhkan

Hidup itu sekali dan mati itu pasti
Bisa jadi nanti, atau setelah ini
Coba tulis ulang lagi, yang sejatinya kau cari..

Maka sudahilah sedihmu yang belum sudah
Segera mulailah syukurmu yang pasti indah
Dan berbahagialah, bahagialah..
Sudahilah sedihmu yang belum sudah
Bahagialah, berbahagialah...
Sudahilah sedihmu yang selalu saja, menantang

Ini Absurd

Dian cuma mau ngasih tau, alangkah baiknya kalian yang punya pacar....jangan pernah meng-kepo entah tweet, wall pacar-pacar Anda sekalian. Karena hanya ada nggerus dan sesak nafas yang Anda dapat. Kenapa saya bisa berkata demikian? Karena saya baru saja mencobanya barusan.

Dan satulagi yang perlu Anda tau, alangkah sulitnya bersikap semua seperti biasa saja apabila kenyataannya itu sedang tidak biasa saja. Ada semacam perlawanan batin yang akan melanda diri Anda. Kemungkinan ini bisa melanda barangsiapa yang barusan meng-kepo pacarnya. Namun, apa boleh dikata apabila kendati demikian harus begitu, karena semua harus baik-baik saja dan jangan menimbulkan permasalahan. Cukup Anda pahami sendiri saja dan tetap yakin kan diri bahwasanya pacar Anda sekalian hanya sayang terhadap diri Anda.

Sekian dan terimakasih.