Iseng bukain postingan lama, dan aku nemu salah satu comment di postingan tahun 2010....dan aku tau itu dari satu-satunya kakak kandungku...Mbak Puti. Cuma comment itu atas nama 'Altergrafik', perusahaan suaminya. Sukses bikin aku galau ini asli. Oke, mari kita tampilkan....
"Mbak Puti itu sama sekali bukan sosok kakak yang asik. Jauh dari kata asik malah."
I knew you would think of me that way..
And I’m not quite interested to change that..
You know why?
Because we’re totally two different person..
You know that personality based on where that person spent most of their childhood, right?
Well, I spent most of my childhood in Jakarta, it shapes my perspectives about everything in life..
And you, you spent most of your childhood in this city, yogyakarta, you even talk in ‘medhok’ accent..
Your taste of music, your taste of fashion, your attitude, your perspectives, your way of thinking are something that I could never understand…or even like..
I know that I’m always gonna be the alien in our family, and I know that I could never close to any of you because none of you could understand me completely..
But that’s totally okay, I love being an alien..i really do..
Not like you, I grew up alone, with many different nannies..i got beat up by some of them, and it’s kind of make me so ‘different’ with all of you..
The other thing is, I’m the first child, our parents give me a lot of pressure, and I sacrifice my own entertainment just to avoid them from getting mad..
for example, at twenty-something girl, I only spent my night-out for like 5 times A YEAR.. it’s something so embarrassing, I got laughed too many times, but I get used to it..
and umm…I confused when you said “pengen sih punya kamar yg bersih dan nyaman”..
the answer is…clean it up!!! They always get mad of you because you’re so lazy.. how could you not understand that??? Maybe that’s the other thing that makes us so different, you’re not aware of your own faults…you are too busy with your own unimportant needs..
PS: people who spend most of their times with twitter, facebook, or anything like that just to show their life off, are the most annoying people ever.. you only live once and you spend it with non-exist life?? Get a life..! if you wanna look cool, BE the trend, don’t follow them!
You know what...I really sorry to hear that and why you didn't try to close to me? I'm still your sister, right? Tapi, makasih ya aku jadi sadar sekarang kalo aku emang males banget ya. Aku juga sadar kalo itu bikin kita beda, tapi kamu tau gak? Aku gak pernah nganggep kita beda. Kita tetep saudara kandung, kamu tetep kakakku. And no matter, no reason...I really love you ever after eventhough you never know. I love and miss when we spend our times together and take a some of pictures. Dan sampe sekarang kamu udah nikah dan Alhamdulillah udah 'isi' perutnya, aku juga ngerasa kangen ada kamu di rumah. I always pray for you that you get your own happiness with your new life, tenang aja. Kalo kamu mampir ke blog-ku lagi dan baca ini, aku mau ngomong kalo aku sayang sama kamu maaf kalo suka bikin kesel, minjem barang gak bilang, soalnya kadang aku iri sama kakaknya temen-temenku mereka pinjem-pinjeman barang asik banget dan aku juga pengin kita gitu :)
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